I (Parth), a Manager in INO pvt ltd. I working there from five years. I am thirty years old. Married at twenty six and have a two years old daughter. All is going good, a perfect life. But it is obvious that too perfect is always boring.
One night, I suddenly realized that all this what I achieved is not what I always wanted too. I am feeling like suffocated. Usually, my wife use to sleep early and I watch television till late. But that day, I sat on balcony feeling the cool wind with closed eyes. I began to remind my life in flashback, I was born in Pune, but my parents sent me to Mumbai in a boarding school. From the birth only, I had many restrictions. The biggest one was not to love. Because of religion issue, they advise me not to love and for that reason, they pushed me in a Boarding school of boys. I had some male friends there. In the boarding school, there was nothing to chill. Like there was no television or anything. All was a radio that was in the canteen. We all use to listen songs when we had our dinner in canteen. From there, I found my passion towards singing. There was a option in dance class; Bharatnatyam and Hip Hop, my parents chose Bharatnatyam for me. I had never an interest towards it. It was not because it was not cool but the dance sir was very strict and he never gave a chance to mediocre. He supoorts good dancers only. For all, music class was a rest time and for the music sir also. But, I use to learn rhyms by my own there. I remember that we had some poems in hindi class and I use to converts them in songs and sing them and learn them for exams. Learning songs were easy than learning question, answers.
All my friends and students were selecting the fields in which they had interest but my parents never asked me what I wanted. I wanted to sing and want to in arts but my parents met to my teachers and discussed about the decision. They sent me in commerce with a foolish reason that 'He is good in maths but bad in science' but why don't you say that 'He is good in drawings, music, langauge too?'
But there was a imaginery bandage on my mouth in front of my parents. I don't know why I was silent and not take stand. After commerce also, they pushed me in MBA with another foolish reason that 'He can't do CA as he is not good in Accounts'. After BBA and MBA, I got job at twenty five. Yes, I had my love life too but as my activities, phone and bag also use to check by my parents, there was nothing more than a crush. After I got, They said to marry, and like a puppet, I agreed. Arranged married and after two years, I got promotion and a little daughter. Now I am financially secured. I have a good wife who always supports me and my parents thinks that they had prove themselves good parents.
But there is something missing in my life. I feel emptiness. I feel like I lost something. I think it is because of my dreams in my life, my passion. Thinking about life, respect and money, I lost my dreams, passion and love. I was just going to cry when I was watching my old photos and I saw a dairy, My secret dairy. It was dirty as I use to hide it in the plants of my rooms, hiding it from my parents. I use to write all my feeling in it which I had not speak up. There were poems and lyrics of songs that I made at that time. But I don't have money and courage at that time to record and publish this songs. I forgot the ryhms but it was composable.
I took a decision to record these songs and publish them and atleast I can support the people who are going under such condition to speak up and don't waste your life. I think that next days' newspaper was also with me, there was advertisement of a newly opened music class and studio in town. I shared everything with my wife. As always, she supported me. I registered my name at the music class. It was from eigth p.m. to nine. I also use to make new lyrics and rectify the old.
It was one month, I parked my bike outside the music class and studio. I was ready to record song today. I took a holiday from the office that day. My music guru and almost all music friends were knowing about my life and the lyrics which were good and energetic. The song was composed by me, written by and was going to sang by me. The first song name was 'Kyu Chup Hai?' (Why are you silent?). All supported me. And the song started recording. Music started. It was three hours but I was not able to come on what the music director wanted. Usually while learning we all sing the song which are already made so it's easy to sing with same rythm but it was totally new. Music director motivated and said "Just remind your life, your restriction and think about the people with whom all this things happen, think it again and again and sing with anger"
I started singing, with anger and director got what he wanted, the energy and feeling which one get from the song. The song was uploaded on social media on YouTube at night. It's very difficult for a new singer to come forward that was what I got, I fall down. In one week, I got barely three hundred views which were not enough. I was in stress, After all this hardwork also, success was so far.
I came to music class after my office as usual and started singing. Music director came and said "Tomorrow, be ready with your next song"
"But, my old song has not got views" I said.
"Then what? We will not stop, one day, you will get your success" He said.
The next day, I was prepared, as it was not the first time. I was knowing how I had to sing. The song name was 'Aawas Utha' (speak up). The song was recorded. The song was busy in editing and was going to upload at night. I was not sure if it will also be in my song list and not get viral. Me, without any hope, fall asleep at night.
The next morning was a unexpected magical morning. The song was uploaded and gone viral. It got 500k+ views on YouTube and came at trending. Not only that, all news channels were also talking about this song. My wife was happy. My daughter was happy watching my photo on television. My first song also gone viral. I was a star on that day. My song not only motivated students and people like me, but it also helped the people who were suffering from injustice. I also got calls from many news channels from interviews. Till nights, My video got 2.2 million views. Beside this, I got a call from my parents, they said "Sorry, beta" with crying voice.
The next day, I appeared in an interview on a famous new channel and I simply said
"Guys, if there is anything going wrong and you can clearly smell it than please speak up or else, your life would be good, you would achieve all you want but at the end, you would feel emptiness. You are not came on earth just to live, settle and die. You are here to finish off you dream than what, if you earn less money from your dreams, there would be a satisfaction in your heart that you achieved what you wanted. Yes, parents are the one who gave birth to us, but its your life so you can atleast 'Speak Up' ".
IF YOU WILL SACRIFICE YOUR DREAMS
,THEN AFTER ACHIEVING ALL ALSO IN LIFE
...THERE WILL BE EMPTINESS
-Yash Kukreja
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